Long time ago he played music inside of everything. That was like if the music was mixed with his deepest emotions or if the melody was popping up the soul-(of-the)-thing. Maybe you can think pop music up something looks strange, but his poems were as if each verse had a musical pattern associated, a kind of double dimension, and as "double" I mean as are, in physics, Space and Time: rhythms, both syllabic and musical, were in a perfect synchronized duality. But to be honest, I didn't see anything special in them, so I guessed it would mean as if a savant mind had tried to make the syllables, both tempo and scale, or whatever they mean, matched in some way (mathematic/magic)+cally in one single space-time tissue and, also, those had texture, flavor, color and musical tone. Oh my god! I was overwhelmed. Me, simple mortal, could only dissociate them to perceive each feature separately, one by one, but never together. He had musical synesthesia and I, to decipher it, had imagination and lyrics.
"Do you know what is anti-dissociative?" He insisted but I only wanted to understand the most basic meaning of that. "It is to see a pianist pursuing the rhythm of a violinist than, with absolute precision, is capable of creating a perfect sub-melody that will cohere(even more) the sound of the string instrument who she pursues. "You know?", I didn't know, those times were times which I didn't want to understand anything. "Musically it's as if energy became music and I could taste it. Ta, ta, ta ♪ ♫ ♬ But you, you still can't feel the battle in its harmony", maybe if I also had synesthesia!, "which fragile and close to break itself because of a high delusion of the piano, it ends, again, obeying to the violin, forming, only then, to her: the perfect melody", he almost get excited. "A delirious texture which all its ingredients were mixed up."
Fuck.
He was talking about musical energy.
When I understood that was too late. Years later his poems were missing. He became very critical with them and stopped his emotional side about any musical lyrics. I thought that was because a musical synesthesia without emotion is death. I guessed, and here came me insight, "a synaesthesia is anti-dissociative by definition".
Comments
Post a Comment